Sunday, March 30, 2008

I'm back...

I can't believe that it has been so long since I posted anything. So much as happened in blogland since my hiatus. I have been reading folks blogs but have not been leaving many comments.

Good news. All the in-laws have left town and DH and I have our apt back!! It was exhausting having folks here for so long. Now for a little rant... The aunt and uncle who stayed the longest is the ones I knew the least and well, let's just say that I know them well now. And I hope I never have to spend that much time alone with them again. Since DH worked alot of their stay, I was left alone with them all the time. They talked and talked and talked and never really said anything. And being Brits they drank about ten cups a tea a day and never used the same mug?! Ugh... how wasteful to just stick mugs in the dishwasher instead of reusing a mug? The real kicker was that they would get up in the middle of the night to pee and would not flush the toilet, disgusting as all the tea they were drinking made their pee smell really strong and made the hallway smell. Disgusting!

I'm also still working on me. I went to the spa last Friday for a massage, mani and pedi at a famous Manhattan spa. Unfortunately, I was unimpressed. It was OK, the real pain in the ass was when I was getting my pedi, a 8.5 month pregnant woman came in for her appt and sat right next to me. And then when I was getting my mani and letting my nails dry, I was asked to move so that preggie woman could have my seat even though my nails were still dry. Just freaking great, I went back to the changing room and went into the toilet area and shed a few tears. I know they had no idea that asking me to move would upset me but it didn't help with my feelings of being an inadequate woman because I can't seem to get pregnant. Anyway, it just wasn't a relaxing experience at all.

DH has been a bit stressed lately so I made an appt for him at my favorite local spa for a massage. I haven't had a massage at the local spa only facials so he is going to report back and I might schedule one for next weekend as I am scheduled to start my next IVF attempt this coming week.

And now to IF treatments. I have not really even thought of them until late last week when I realized that AF is suppose to come this weekend and I had not received my meds. My protocal is different this round and I am going to start off with clomid to recruit follies and then switch to injectibles. I made a decision to do things differently this cycle, I've been going to the acupuncturist once a week, taking my chinese herbs and doing an hour of cardio almost every day. Usually when I start stimming, I stop exercising but not this time. I'm also doing chefs diet which is going to deliver freshly made meals every morning for the next week. This will help me stabilize my blood sugar which is key to growing quality eggs. Hopefully all of this will help me grow more follies than last time and good quality.

Today was CD 24 so AF should have arrived, I am hoping it arrives soon as I want to start this cycle so that I can plan work around the time estimates of ER and ET because of the best news in the last few weeks.... I got the job I was interviewing for!!! I officially accepted last thursday and my start date is 28 April.

I hope everyone is doing well.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Break between guests

DH and I had a two day break between house guests. It was too short. Tomorrow the next set of house guests arrive and I am just wanting a few more days of peace and quiet. Am I a bad person? I promise I am not but I want to come home from work and put on my PJs and lay on the sofa sometimes during the week and I haven't been able to do that.

Today was a good day, I had a second interview at another bank and I think I will get an offer for the job in the next few days. If so, I will take it, if the money is right of course. I will need to schedule the start date after I finish my next IVF cycle but that shouldn't be an issue.

Not so good news... My BIL's wife who is pregnant with twins has been hospitalized for 2 weeks with bleeding. She is between 5 - 6 months along. They keep rushing her to delivery room and then taking her back to a room. BIL is stressed with all of the worry and also trying to take care of the 1 year old son.... And their son has started acting out as he misses his mum. It's a really tough time for them. I wish we lived closer so we could help with their son. I am hoping everything works out for the twins as they are really struggling.

I hate to end on a down note but I don't have much to write about.... besides I'm dreading the upcoming week of house guests.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

A long 3 weeks

Today is the first day of three weeks of DH's family visiting. Two different sets are staying with us in our cozy 2 bed/2 bath apartment. Although our apartment is big by NYC standards, about 1,100 square feet, but when there are 5 people + a 70 lbs dog it doesn't seem so roomy. DH's aunt and uncle arrived today and their daughter arrives tomorrow. They are staying through next Tuesday.

Then we have 2 days of no visitors before another cousin and his wife arrive on Thursday. They are both our age and when DH and I lived in the UK we went out with them a few times to dinner and lots of drinks so they will be a lot of fun to have around. They leave on Easter Sunday and the aunt, uncle and cousin come back on the same day for another 3 days.


I am continuing to work on me (see previous post). Last Saturday, I treated myself to a very pricey facial at a spa in my neighborhood. It was the best facial I have ever had. Even today my eye doc complimented me on how nice my skin looked. I will be going back to get another facial in about 6-8 weeks as recommended. Since I was in the pampering mood and I have 3 weeks of relatives visiting... I booked a massage, manicure and pedicure for next Friday (Good Friday). I felt I was justified in spending the extra money since I will not be able to relax at home.

I have not been doing anything IF related except my weekly acupuncture. The new acu place is really nice and I feel really comfortable with them. I expect to be ovulating over Easter weekend and we are going to do au naturalle due to missing the cut off day for trying another IVF cycle at the clinic. We are planning to do another IVF cycle starting at the end of March. Until then, I will probably not be posting much on the IF front.

Friday, March 7, 2008

Working on me

I have been absent from blogging longer than normal and I have missed keeping up with everyone.

I needed to take a little break to work on me. Working on me started when I picked up a book in one of my favorite stores after leaving my first acupuncture appt last Friday and it asked a simple question that I had no answer to:

What makes you happy?

It has been ages since I considered that question. I have spent so much time and energy trying to get pregnant with fertility treatments that I've forgotten about me. I feel as though I've let some of my friendships slid as well as other things.

I'm still working on what makes me happy besides starting a family. What I know for sure is that my husband and beautiful dog make me happy but what else? I seriously do not know.

Although I'm not slowing down with IF treatments, I must start making more time for me. Sometimes I feel as though I am losing touch with the real me.