I have been absent from blogging longer than normal and I have missed keeping up with everyone.
I needed to take a little break to work on me. Working on me started when I picked up a book in one of my favorite stores after leaving my first acupuncture appt last Friday and it asked a simple question that I had no answer to:
What makes you happy?
It has been ages since I considered that question. I have spent so much time and energy trying to get pregnant with fertility treatments that I've forgotten about me. I feel as though I've let some of my friendships slid as well as other things.
I'm still working on what makes me happy besides starting a family. What I know for sure is that my husband and beautiful dog make me happy but what else? I seriously do not know.
Although I'm not slowing down with IF treatments, I must start making more time for me. Sometimes I feel as though I am losing touch with the real me.
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About Me
- Swim
- New York, New York, United States
- I'm 37, married DH in January 2004. We have been TTC since January 2005. This blog is keeping me somewhat sane.
Blogs I read
- Baby in the making (we hope!!!)
- Baby Steps
- Barren by the Bay
- Emilythehopeless
- Infertility Irony
- Journey to Junior
- Just one bean
- Nobaby Lane
- Stirrup Queens and Sperm Palace Jesters
- Super Ovum
- The Egg Timer (is about to ring)
- The Infertile Informer
- The Life of Nancy
- There must be more than being fond of grief
2 comments:
Thanks for checking in on me. I know what you mean about losing touch with your real self. A six week cycle (plus or minus a few weeks) is a big piece of time (it's like the whole winter went by and I was cocooned on the couch!!).
When I finally got out and about again, I was surprised by all the things I'd forgotten about that make me feel like me that are NOT related to TTC.
I am glad you are making time for you.
I didn't realize that I wasn't happy until last week when my outlooked improved after I finally agreed (in my heart which was slow to go where my mind was) that egg donor was the way to go for me. My boss asked what good news I had recently to put me in such a good mood and I blurted out, "I've been depressed for the past year and I finally came out of it". He was so surprised as was I. I didn't think I was depressed but the past year of cycles really took its toll on me. I don't think we realize how much IF treatments wear us out and wear us down.
My dog makes me happy, too.
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