Friday, March 7, 2008

Working on me

I have been absent from blogging longer than normal and I have missed keeping up with everyone.

I needed to take a little break to work on me. Working on me started when I picked up a book in one of my favorite stores after leaving my first acupuncture appt last Friday and it asked a simple question that I had no answer to:

What makes you happy?

It has been ages since I considered that question. I have spent so much time and energy trying to get pregnant with fertility treatments that I've forgotten about me. I feel as though I've let some of my friendships slid as well as other things.

I'm still working on what makes me happy besides starting a family. What I know for sure is that my husband and beautiful dog make me happy but what else? I seriously do not know.

Although I'm not slowing down with IF treatments, I must start making more time for me. Sometimes I feel as though I am losing touch with the real me.


jp said...

Thanks for checking in on me. I know what you mean about losing touch with your real self. A six week cycle (plus or minus a few weeks) is a big piece of time (it's like the whole winter went by and I was cocooned on the couch!!).
When I finally got out and about again, I was surprised by all the things I'd forgotten about that make me feel like me that are NOT related to TTC.
I am glad you are making time for you.

Egged Out said...

I didn't realize that I wasn't happy until last week when my outlooked improved after I finally agreed (in my heart which was slow to go where my mind was) that egg donor was the way to go for me. My boss asked what good news I had recently to put me in such a good mood and I blurted out, "I've been depressed for the past year and I finally came out of it". He was so surprised as was I. I didn't think I was depressed but the past year of cycles really took its toll on me. I don't think we realize how much IF treatments wear us out and wear us down.

My dog makes me happy, too.